Friday, January 24, 2003 :::
what is it with people's temper? why is it that sometimes someone can just turn into a horrible mood over nothing? i'm currently terribly pissed off. have been since last night. i cant fucking understand moodiness.........hate it hate it hate it.......does not solve anything and does not help anything only to bring trouble.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHH........feel like blardy screaming.
i'm frustrated, annoyed, pissed off and completely stressed out. someone save my soul.........
::: posted by Sass O at Friday, January 24, 2003
Wednesday, January 22, 2003 :::
it's been a while since i've written in here. Nothing much has happened the past week I did have great lunches and dinners with friends. Chatting about everything and it all generated good laughs. They were good times but still Fel is missing.
This may sound corny and what not but then again everything in my life is just so different without Fel. I miss his presence, his hugs, kisses and teases. Now I am beginning to understand how people who have just dated for like 6 months can make the crucial decision of marriage. I had always thought that having a long term relationship helps to ground the love that each have for each other. But I think time should be no barrier. Of course do not be silly and just jump into any conclusion and decisions that may affect your life.
Never would I have thought that I would be so much in love now. If you asked me a year ago I would've been moping around hoping for my knight in shining armour to come along sweeping me off me feet. Never would I know that the knight would be Fel and instead of just sweeping me off my feet has made me fall in love with him a thousand times and more. Since I was in high school I had always wondered who my true love would be and always believed that true love only happens once in a life time. I still believe that now and believe that maybe just maybe Fel would be the one. Perhaps it is the beating of my heart each time I see him or think of him or the pain that I am in just missing him.
He'll be back on the 3rd but that seems so far away. He only left 2 weeks ago but yet it feels like eternity. I can't wait till Valentine's Day as I'm taking him away for the weekend. Found this absolutely cute and quaint little bed & breakfast cottage in Kurrajong Heights close to Blue Mountains complete with a spa, queen sized bed and a fireplace! Am getting excited just imagining the place. I really can't wait till the 14th arrives as it will be our 1st holiday away alone. The first was to Melbourne but was with a group of friends, had fun but it wasn't a romantic kinda thing. It is also my first celebrating Valentine's Day in such a special way, so more reasons to be excited about it!
Didn't hear from Fel today, sms him a couple of times but no reply, guess he is busy tho. Was telling me about some promotional shots he had to help take for his family stores back home. Hope it comes out well as he isn't a real photographer! But I have faith in him, he is extremely talented and artistic so it would come out well. Just hope he calls me or replies me soon! Really need to hear his voice to get through my day. Kinda odd not hearing from him.
Anyways...a week and a half more! Can't wait till he comes back......Sydney is a real bore without him.
::: posted by Sass O at Wednesday, January 22, 2003
